I have a desire to heal myself from ‘mental illness’ at least that’s how ppl see me.
Their descriptions are pretty accurate, but I don’t think I’m ‘ill’ so much, I’m more ‘different and refuse to change’.
But my chronic depression I admit is very real to me and others. I’ve taken prescriptions in the past for things, and over time I’ve refused to take them, all except the anti-depressants, b/c they do nudge me into a happier mood that is hard to reach on my own.
They also give me patience, a clear mind, a calm temper, and it all goes a very long way with how I am as a parent, before them it helped me in my working life.
The past two days I’ve taken a half dose and I’m still clear minded, patient, but I’ve spent time meditating, finding the path of least resistance, taking walks, etc.
Every holistic approach I can find. Even sleep schedules, diets, exercise, I’ve been trying these things all along.
Ive noticed this, yes the holistic approach helps, but it takes much more time, but it’s more satisfying.
When things are extra tough though, and my kids and family are also involved, I’d take the stupid pill for another day.
Two days now… but…